Urv

Wednesday, October 16, 2002:

Ok today in review... Woke up and got my travel uniform. Then off to school where I had mband. First we marched parade for a bit. Then we marched to Oak for the Oak suprise... Which went well while we preform. But as soon as we were marching back all went to hell as far as I was concerned because of total disregard for marching by everyone near me. Which I found really frustrating cuz I could see the cover down files everywhere except starting two rows before me. So after getting back to school went off to math in a frustrated mood cuz I am way too frustrated with clarinets and nothing is changing for better. Then after that we had brunch and I was still frutrated and such. In spainish we did normal book activities and such. Then at lunch finally got a chance to change shirt from panguin suit one to a normal red shirt. But I kept the tie and jacket and all, and am still in those. Then in Acting class we did our mimes. And as always I went first. Then after that had rehersal. Which was okay.. last pages were done today.. yay. And then went home and ate a toaster before going to S+D. The lady in charge of congress is sooo strict.. she knows what she's doing but doesn't feel fun. Then managed to get out of that to go do OPP and Publicity stuff... which means I now need to make flyers telling people that there is a S+D tournement next thursday. And then when that was all over went to gas station before coming home. Not am IMing, blogging, checking the forum and then will study bio before bed... Highlight of my day was finding out Adam is coming back for the weekend, which is good cuz haven't seen him since night before band camp. Which was a while ago. anyways off I go.
Urv // 10:19 PM

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Tuesday, October 15, 2002:

erk.. today was rather odd... I got to wake up later then normal but had to take the PSATs all day so I didn't really enjoy it. Plus bad cramps made this morning rather tough... Then at break wandered around with people for a bit and then returned to the PSATs...After those were done we had a lame assembally with a "magician" and the home coming skit which was rather lame... Then went home for a bit before me, my parents and sister went to CPK.... Yum.. I love their spinich and avacado dip.. Is so good. Then home for a bit and off to marching band. ERG ERG ERG, I HATE my section... Clarinets are evil... Got to point where Adam had to come talk to the section about it.... Jeez, is that not a clue that we need to shape up?? And has been like this for the last three weeks... ERG... no more of that shit.. I'd rather forget. Good part of mband... Seeing Brian... My most huggable friend... which helped calm me down after the ERG ERG ERG part... Then also hanging ot with people during water breaks. Then went home for a bit and am now at my cousin's house for dinner. Ok am done for now...
Urv // 8:29 PM

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Monday, October 14, 2002:

Wow... has been a long time.. well not really. But it does feel like it.
On friday was okayish, though not doing too well. Felt a bit frustrating at IT because atmosphere was so different. but whatever.Friday was overall fairly normal so am not going into that. I will however past on to here what I posted on the drama forum...
1. This morning: The way the clouds looked, a middle shade of gray, and streaked a bit... with lighter clouds in the back... as we marched through almost firm mud... (don't ask why that appealed to me).. Also the way the air felt.. Cold yet almost soft like.. not bitter cold, but there and kind of nuetral.
2. The letter to comedy cup from Erica, which reminded me of all the best of last year
3. The post new topic typing area, where I wrote a messege for the first time in a long time.....
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Wow.. It has been exactly 100 days sinse I last posted.. by a complete coincidance... Which for those of you who are trying to figure this out is about 3 and half months. When I stopped posting at the end of June it was to make a point on the pertinint rule technically eliminating everything.. I was originally planning not to post for a month or two.. which lead to more cuz I felt awkward about posting... Like I was being a hypocrit... But a lot of time has passed, a lot of things have changed, the pertinent rule seems to have been abolished almost entirely, and after reading all the things people wrote about three beautiful things they saw that day... I felt it was the drama I loved showing through. And so am posting to say am officially done with being bitter about it and such...
After all "Nobody really cares if you're miserable, so you might as well be happy." (Cynthia Nelms)...
Anyways, now that am back will post in a normal not to excessive fashion ect...
It feels good to be back.. Like a home within my mind am finally returning too..
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moving on to Saturday, when we had our first m band tournement
here's what I wrote on my mband page:
October 13th
Yesterday was.. umm... all over I guess. Great at times and not-so-great at others. Parade wasn't too good. MV go the lowest scores it has had in the last twenty years or something like that.. Ugh, but we didn't focus on parade much so is to be somewhat expected. Then we had lunch and rehersal before the award cerimony. Awards were fun though. Cuz we had a rehersal right before awards started we were the last band to get to the football feild so we were on the crappy side on our own. Which was fine cuz we had fun out on our own anyways. Then after that we had free time for a while before dinner so we were almost all laying on the grass or on blankets atempting to take naps. Didn't work too well. At least for me. I can't sleep when the sun is out. so sat around for a bit, gave a few people massages and then sat around some more. Then we had an early dinner (before 5.. how weird is that?). As soon as I was done I went to get my hair done for field show, which they did fairly fast. Then I got into uniform and got my hat... Which wouldn't fit over my hair without poofing, so they redid it, and then redid it again. Thus making the last one to get the warmup circle.. erg.. maybe should get hair trimmed a bit befere the next tournement, is hard to run in uniform.... So after running to join the circle I warmed up with the band, and then we ran though the show a few times. Then we had a bit of practice marching doing 8's and 8's. Then we broke out into sectionals. After we tuned and reviewed horn manuals, Laura and Kristan talked to the clarinets about us needing to work more and how we've had enough and too much of the goof inf off and now they were gonna be more serious with us even if it ment people wouldn't like them as much ect.. because the band is getting worse and if thats what it'll take that's what they'll do. Basicly they said they said they were sick of all the things I've been bitter about for the last week plus a bit, and it was time to end that. Which is good because with that we will improve and such. Then after that we went back to the circle once more and practiced a bit more and colorgaurd joined and practiced in the middle. after that we got into the block to go on the field.. Random comment, the moon looked so cool while we were practicing.... Then we marched to the field and waited to go on. Then we did go on.. It felt amazing to be preforming again. Reminded me of why I am in marching marching band, which was good cuz I needed the reminder. We then left the field and did our normal sprial thing and were dismissed. Then we all went back to get out of uniforms and grab blankets and such before going back to the field and settling down for awards. We didn't do as good as we thought we did, third in our division, and brass got 2nd (beating Leigh and Homestead...YAY brass...). Though overall we were dissapointed cuz Liegh got speapstakes for parade, field show, music and overall.. So after awards the entire band lost a lot of the excitement and such and then left without the excitement we'd had until then. We got back to school a bit earlier then expected... Overall a good day although it had its odd moments.
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Also what I posted for the forum:
1. a garlic begal that friend got me for breakfast (esspecially sinse I'd been in a hurry and hadn't eaten at all)
2. The look of relief on a friends face after I'd been massaging her back during awards
3. The way it felt to walk on to the field.. into the bright lights, with stars and the moon showing above, and being surrounded by a band whose members are so into it that they don't notice anything other then that.
(am gonna break a trend here.. uh oh..sorry)
4. right after the field show, when were all into it and almost everyone was happy, excited, smiling, and silent.
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Extra notes, in the morning was rushed and such and thus not too good, but the begal changed that for me. I didn't like parade too much, but afterwards lunch, awards and free time were good. I went back and forth between giving friends massages and relaxing in the large group sprawled out on the grass. Which was good. Later after Laura's speech to the clarinets I wasn't too good though because I know every word was true and that frustrated me. And also it reminded me of last year when at the same time we'd recieved pennies for good luck. Also after we marched off I was a bit similar because we'd been good but I think we could have been better. Anyways then after all that got home, showered and off to bed.
Sunday
Woke up late after about 10-11 hours of sleep, heaven after yesterday. Spent whole day at home doing hw, IMing, and such. Highlight of day I think was chatting with Adam at around midnight online. On the forum I posted:
1. Waking up and not hearing my alarm clock telling me it was 5:30
2. looking up and seeing dark clouds above the sky light that were blueish gray
3. The reflection of some pinkish clouds on my kitchen floor when I'd forgotten to turn the lighs on. The room was dimly illuminated with that light from both outside and its reflection inside
-------Monday/Today
Okayish I guess, though not too good. Cramps are evil.. And thus was a tad out of it. Assembaly was okay asides from technical difficulties causing the skit to be cancled. We played okay though. Then school was normal stuff.. Congrads to novice S+Ders for the tournements. And now what I posted today on forum:
1. while huizing was ignoring my comments on lines after telling me to make them, Brent telling me not to worry and either way he'd listen and my work was appriciated.
2. The way my bed felt this morning, warm and comforting like... I don't know, but something nice.
3. Chatting with Adam last night for the first time in a really long time

okay am done at last.. whew....
Urv // 9:01 PM

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